Why Do I Practice?
By Paul Dallaghan
The answer to this is something that evolves over time, with
one’s development, as the experiences and insight grows
and changes. In the beginning I can’t say why I
practiced other than I liked it. I remember saying to
myself “this is the most intelligent form of exercise
I have ever done”. It of course has evolved off
of that line. Typically, “practice” in the
beginning is more about recreation. Based on that alone
the reasons would be more desire and emotion based. But
there is an inherent power in the practices that takes us on
a growth path. At some point we must meet that fully
with our own consciousness. Then the experience deepens
and the reasons evolve.
For many years now I spend anything from three to five hours
a day engaged in yogic practices, even with the introduction
of a family and fully functional business. It means early
rising. There is an element of feeling good and healthy
from it. Feeling stronger and clearer. But I am
very aware that these are side effects. For the practice
must stabilize at some stage and affect our behaviour at all
times.
When I look at life I see two options. Either to participate
in my own inner development, through awareness and practice,
and allow grace to take over or to just get up and go on with
the day, where the subtle law of gravity takes over. Go
away for a year and leave your car in your driveway. No
care or attention given to it. Come back and examine
its state. It will have deteriorated no matter what. But
if someone is to start the engine every few days and polish
it it will work pretty similar to the level at when you left. It,
however, is a mechanical device and can’t be changed
in its current state. We on the other hand are conscious
organic beings. When we work on ourselves we not only
keep ourselves fresh but we grow.
The acknowledgement that life is full of ups and downs no
matter who you are was key for me. The best thing I could
do was work with myself, cultivate the focus within instead
of wasting energy outwardly. I believe in my teacher
and in yoga. I believe in the practice. It is at
a point I feel inside and I understand what it is for. It
is very private, personal, intimate. Just like any close
relationship.
The further realisation that for anything to have impact it
requires constant doing was also key for me. I practice
daily as it is the agent of my growth, it uplifts me, it directly
affects my behaviour, it intensifies the energy within, away
from sensual drain and mere rushes of adrenaline, strengthens
me beyond anything I have experienced, directly affecting how
I handle each situation.
It is about my life, uplifted, than more intensity on the
sense level. It is pure personal experience. Discover
for yourself.
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