Watch Your Own Mind
By Paul Dallaghan
The great Thai forest Buddhist monk, Ajahn Chah, was asked
if it was advisable to read or study the scriptures as a part
of practice. He replied “The Dhamma of the Buddha
is not found in books. If you want to really see for
yourself what the Buddha was talking about, you don’t
need to bother with books. Watch your own mind. Examine
to see how feelings come and go, how thoughts come and go. Don’t
be attached to anything. Just be mindful of whatever
there is to see. …….. Be natural, everything
you do in your life here is a chance to practice. When
you do your chores, try to be mindful. ……… don’t
feel you are practicing only when sitting still, cross-legged. If
there is enough time to breathe then there is enough time to
practice. this is your meditation: mindfulness,
naturalness in whatever you do.”
Ajahn Chah’s advice here cuts straight through to the
essence of all spiritual work or practice; to watch oneself,
ideally at all times. To develop this takes time and
practice and the interest and willingness to look within. the
other practices we come across in yoga need to be done in this
manner but also serve to develop the ability of self-observation. All
these practices use the breath, especially at the initial stages. The
breath is both the grossest subtle thing we can grasp and the
subtlest gross thing. Just to pay attention to that,
even if just doing an asana, begins the process of self-awareness,
self-observation. If you stop now and take a deep breath,
see where your attention goes. It must follow the breath
and the feeling inside. The inner journey has begun. To
keep this up, day after day, year after year, in all activities
not just yoga practices, builds a deeper sense of personal
observation and awareness.
Related to all this is the subject of ‘Svadhyaya’. It
is traditionally explained as study of one’s own subject,
which in older style India meant your branch of the Vedas. In
modern terms we can’t limit all peoples everywhere to
such a narrow focus. Two aspects come up here. Study
of scriptural texts, which books on the Yoga Sutras define
it as, and study of yourself. Often we hear of recitation
of mantra as the vehicle for this. Again the reach of
yoga goes across all borders to all people. In its finite
the practice of watching yourself is its real message.
The study of scripture and recitation of mantra have positive
value toward this though. Ajahn Chah’s words above
are very clear as without this self-observation all other practice
and study is almost a waste of time. But we are advised
to read the scriptures as these contain universal truths that
aren’t to be read like a novel. The reading of
them forces us to pause and contemplate ourselves. They
also offer a guide of true practice that keeps us from falling
in to our circular patterns where what we think is self-examination
turns out to be brooding, judging and criticism. Just
the flip side of the ego coin. Hence mantra. Its
vibrations are powerful and ideally is transmitted in an appropriate
way. As you go on reciting it the mind is trained and
guided on an inner path.
Svadhyaya comes up twice in the Yoga Sutras. First under
Kriya Yoga and secondly as part of the Niyamas. Scholars
and practitioners will always present slightly varying views
on this and their meaning. You can see it as twofold. One
is practical, what you must do, which boils down to study and
mantra. Secondly, as an ongoing attitude, a constant
observation. “How did I just respond now? ; what
am I feeling now? ; where is my breath at? ; what
is my inner reaction upon hearing such a thing? And so
on. This must then mature to the ability to view, almost
from afar, how I walk, talk, sleep, eat, behave in general. Again
to quote Ajahn Chah “You sustain awareness at every
moment and in every posture, whether standing, walking, sitting
or lying down. Before you perform any action, speak or
engage in conversation, establish awareness first – don’t
act or speak first, establish mindfulness first and then act
or speak.”
The study and practices are there to help cultivate the ability
to be present at all times, mindful. But our mind
must also be directed in this way, to want to watch ourself.
Yoga is useless without such a mindfulness. In fact,
technically, you can’t call it yoga. It just falls
under some other category. Sutra 28 in the first pada
highlights this too. In a general sense, whether repetition
of mantra or any other practice, asana, etc. that you are doing
you must feel it, be part of it, connected. This means
you must be watching what you are doing. It boils down
to where the mind is at. As you do your asana see where
your mind has gone and bring it back to the pose, the feeling
and the breath. Ideally the teacher can help guide you
more. You are now cultivating the art of self observation,
mindfulness.
To highlight such a point I can conclude this with a quote
from modern science:
“the discovery that neuroplasticity cannot occur without attention has
important implications. If a skill becomes so routine you can do it on
autopilot, practicing it will no longer change the brain. And if you
take up metnal exercises to keep your brain young, they will not be as effective
if you become able to do them without paying much attention.”
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